It's been a roller-coaster ride so far, this year, one way or another.
Certainly over the last few months.
Perhaps it is because I have been in an "elevated sensitive" state that a particular incident that occurred on Monday evening has had a profound impact on me.
I had spent the day working in Guildford, and on finishing, I had strolled to a restaurant, wined and dined myself and then headed to the railway station.
I was walking around the Friary Shopping Mall, it was a balmy evening, not too many people about.
And I was in my usual, "What's It All About/What's it all For" mode of thinking.
Several pedestrians were wandering about and then round the corner came a young kid on a BMX style bike. Riding on the pavement. No problem, he wasn't going too fast or wild and he appeared to be bothering no-one and was giving everybody lots of room.
I didn't think anything of it (yeah, I know they can be a pain in the arse sometimes, but this kid was doing OK...and I was knackered).
As he sailed by me, the calm was suddenly shattered by a loudspeaker/hailer squawking at some obscene volume to the effect of "Oi!! THAT KID RIDING ON THE PAVEMENT- IT"S NOT ALLOWED- GET OFF IT IMMEDIATELY!
It was directly above my head.
It stopped me in my tracks.
I couldn't believe that there was some Fuckwit/Arsehole, watching a camera and commanding pedestrians how to behave. WTF??!!
I was immediately transported to
1984, which, co-incidentally, I have recently re-read.
I think I stood there for about 5 minutes just looking at the bloody contraption on the wall.

Big Brother is here...
Yes, I know all about the cctv coverage/cameras throughout our country/society, but for some unknown reason, because this was right in my ear, literally and because it concerned something so trivial as a kid riding a bike on a pavement it brought the whole CCTV observation scenario into sharper focus.
I was fucking LIVID!!
By the time I was sitting on the train home I had decided, not for the first time, that this was no longer the country/society that I wished to live in...or die in, for that matter.
Time to do something about it.
So... I have.
I have spent a major part of my life travelling, one way or another, and I think it's time I dusted off the passport and moved on...certainly from this God-forsaken piece of shit that purports to be England.
I am now beginning to make plans that involve a lot of travelling.
With the way things are going work-wise and the (slight) possibility of a previously unforeseen little pension pot infusion, (yeah, I'm that old...nearly!!), my plan is simple:
I am going fly to the furthest point on the planet from this mess that I'm living in at the moment, and see about working my way back...if I want to.
New Zealand, (yes SC, this may involve you!!) as a staring point and take it from there.
I will have no time limits.
I am relatively fit, physically (mentally, I'm still not sure), so it has to/can be done.
There are few (if any) people here, who will even register my prolonged absence, so I think, now is the perfect time to do what I have been advocating so many people to do over so many years...
I'm going to Fuck off.
I've given myself a maximum of 2 years (maybe could be done in 1) to get everything in order (monies etc).
Any advice/suggestions/comments are most welcome and if there is anybody out there who'd like to hook up with me at any time you are most welcome.
T&Cs will apply of course...mine, that is :-)
Will I make it back?
Who knows.
I
do know that I have to get out of this country and do what I have been itching to do for most of my life.
I am well aware this will probably be my last journey, but I'm going to make sure that it will be
MY "Journey Of a Lifetime".
More details will follow and up-dates posted accordingly.
xxx